Cross my fingers!

Hello everyone! Few days ago when I posted something about having another child which is entitled better luck next time. So far, I still don't have my period for this month and I'm a little bit worried because like I said in my previous post, not yet for now. I do really want to have another child but not for now. I still keep on waiting for my period and hoping to have it soon because it's not yet a better time to get pregnant again. I already told about it to my hubby and he's asking me to gofor check up to my ob gyne, still I have the positive vibes that my period is coming and hopefully to have a better outcome too! If I am really pregnant I have no choice but to have it and besides it's another blessing to thank for from our God Almighty. Just want to share to you my feelings for now! I'll just cross my fingers! Goodluck to me! hehehe! Ciao!


Good Day!

It's their Choice!

I watched a tv show yesterday, there's a celebrity couple who have been together for eight(8) years is now ended. I just can't imagined if I would be the girl into that situation, how will I going to handle it? I think it would be very sad for both of them but that's life. Nothing is really sure especially if your only in a relationship and not in a marriage. Even some couple who already have a kid on their early age, but since their not married anything can happen, both of them can have a new partner in the future. Who knows? So sad to say but it's normal here. Luckily, I am married to my daughter's father.

I have nothing against to those who have a stepdad/moms, stepsons/daughters but I just feel so lucky to have my hubby and daughter legally. I mean my daughter is from flesh and blood of my hubby. I have so many friends who has a halfsister or halfbrother and I'm so feel bad to their parents sometimes. It's just because I feel that their thinking about their self, their own happiness.

Another friend of mine who is seperated from his wife and has 2 kids are now looking for a new partner in life that will stay for him and for his kids. He told me it's hard being alone that's why he wants to give her children a mother, his kids is both boys, and his case I understand because his former wife really don't like to take care of her kids and I was impress to my friend raising his kids alone. But I think, if I am the girl who will be saperated I will never enter into relationship anymore for the sake of my kid especially if my kid is a girl. I will not think of my own happiness but instead I will think of the future of my kid. But that's their choice!



And for me I hate goodbyes, I hate endings. I hate 2nd, 3rd. 4th and blah,blah. I hate another, I hate replacement, I hate acting as. . .I just want to be the original. I just want to be the only one of my hubby, my daughter and my family. I want a happy family! Just like that.

mwah!

Replay!

Oh my God, I feel so disappointed and quite sad for today, 2 posts of mine are once again initially pending for approval/rejected because of the same reason like before, post after a sponsored post having the same date when written and reviewed. Like my other 2 post rejected before, I can't do anything to correct it, it's just I feel so mad about me because I didn't learn my first lesson that's why it occured again. A total of 4 posts, amounting $5 each post are now gone and flew! I didn't mean to do it, maybe I'm too excited writing a post during that time and I'm worried too that these opp may not be available on the next 2 hours that's why I'm in hurry to write about it without thinking that I just written another sponsored post a while ago. I can't no longer do anything because it's in Izea's terms and conditions that I need to obey and they need to apply for everyone's blog. It's just really make me feel sad!=(

whew!

Got a PR 2 Yehey!

Good evening everyone! I was browsing some blogs on my blogroll and reading some notes, go back to my page and scroll down to the bottom part of my site, I saw the different nationalities who visited my page, the live traffic feed and the feedjit. When I'm at the Disclosure Policy, I always look at the end of that part wherein my histats and pagerank status was located. I was so surprised and up to now still i can't believe that I got the for now. WoW! yehey! yehey! Those were the words who comes out from my mouth while staring at the said PR. This is what I've been waiting for, to get some rank out of ten and I can't imagined how did I get this PR 2 I really not expecting to get this rank as high as this PR 2rank. My blog is just a 5 months ago when it was started,Oh you really made me smile today google! Thank you very much google for this, I really appreciate it and thank you to all of you who appreciate my page, who always visiting and reading my posts. many thanks to all of you guys, especially Google. Thank you! Really! Thanks! This tag is for all of you guys!

Good night!

Thanks A lot!

Hi guys! Friendster is now back in normal. You can continue visiting their site and enjoy their services. More Opps coming from Socialspark and PPP, mylot is also doing good, adding earnings to my paypal acount. Receiving comments from some friends and anonymously. So far, so good!


As an additional, from SP, Naak tribe left cast aways are doing good too without the presence of KIKO. (sorry, as I promised not to watch sp anymore but I can't)plus receiving the christmas bonus of hubby! A treat for us! yehey!!!! just feeling so happy now guys! Thank you Lord for all these blessings!
Good Evening!

How I feel for today?

I feel quite sad and I begin to think and review my site after receiving a comment saying that most of the stuff here are pretty personal stuff and therefore only my friends would be interested or either that I will make things more interesting. It's just an opinion and I should understand but I feel quite hurt although he added some compliments that it is nice and simple and he hopes that I will gain more audience, still feel a slight pain. This is what I want, to look the way I am, personalized and for me this is my personal journal and most of my personal matters are here because I want to treasure it and remember it by reading it once again some other time. I am not pleasing everybody to like my blog, i just want to share some of it to some people too! I understand what will be the opinion of others and I respect that. Sorry guys! This is me and I just want it to be this way, simple but worth visiting page. You cannot get here something you will need but you will learn things here once in a while.

mwah!

SP fans reactions are just normal

After the episode last night, I can no longer wait for monday. The day that we will able to know who will be eliminated between KIKO and Marlon. Some says it's Kiko, some says it Marlon, what if the last vote is not the names of the two? Is there any changes? I don't think so, what ever happens I need to accept it that Naak is totally broken. Yah! So sad for that. I only watch the said tv show because of the team work they have, the spirit they have, the way how they play the game since from the start with that team goal and effort for the benefit of the team.

I do understand how the game "survivor" was played by the orinal show and castaways, I also knew that all those who join the said reality show has a purpose and that is to win the title and the allotted price but I think it's the timing, it supposed to be after they swept the whole jarakay, not now.

I can't do anything to that by the way, I'm cheering for the whole naak and not between Kiko, Chris and Kaye. I'm quite sad to have 4 votes for Kiko, meaning 1 from Naak voted him. Maybe that's part of the game but I don't care anymore. My brother is laughing @ me while doing this post because I am so affected daw to the said show, he said
"Akala ko addict na ko sa survivor, meron pa palang mas matindi sa'kin..."


A bulletin message from "Kaye" saying she deleted foul and below the belt comments from the fans and if ever that there will be from Naak will be eliminated, it's just part of the game. Yes! she maybe right but comments and reactions of the fans are just normal.And she felt bad for those who are saying their both bad, Chris and her. "Patulan ba daw?", in the first place it's true that she betrayed her tribe and as of now still questionable for Chris if he did the same thing.On monday we will know if both of them have the same decision. Be ready Kaye, after the Survivor, you may enter the showbiz and you may have a lot of criticisms and comments from the public and that's part of it. Only because of the Naak I supported the said TV show but for I now I don't know if I will continue to watch it maybe it depends upon the result on monday. I know it sounds so baduy, but I really hate the situation going on now in Survivor. Sorry guys I hate dull moments, but that's what we need to do in our everyday lives, expect the unexpected! hehehe! I'm just a fan and fan has always a reactions. . .

Hope you understand Naak, you make us smile but also you make us sad and disappointed too! Just being emotional here! I hate it!

Good night!

Oh my!!!

Oh my gosh!!!! I really don't know what to do, I received a message earlier that a post of mine wasn't able to be approved by customer love due to immediately next to another sponsored post which is against their Terms and Conditions, one of these posts is drafted during that same day I made the other one, when I got the slot for the one I reserved, I immediately published it that's why the posting was with the same day as my other post. I tried to resubmit my post to have the different date and to be approved, and I accidentally deleted my other post which is unfortunately, the one that was deleted was the approved post and already waiting for payment. Now, I'm worried if what will happen to my deleted post? I'm thinking that once I already resubmitted the post, it will also require for another approval and I will wait for another month for the payment. Does it really affect the payment for the deleted post even if it's already approved? I feel so grrr! kainis!

Well, I do hope it will be answered soon as I already submitted a ticket for it asking them what will happen. I can wait for their answer and advise. Hopefully nothing will gonna happen bad and both of my post will be approved and paid and nothing will turn into trash! hehehe!
How I wish!

Acceptance

Sometimes we can't face the fact that someone is a step ahead to us. Because of our mistakes in life, our wrong decisions, we failed to achieve our goals and then we felt bad if we witness the success of other. We may have our regrets but it can't help right now. It's just we can't accept that it's our fault and pretending that it's our choice but even if we try to make the situation around, still the mistake we made serves as a stain in life that will never be erased anymore. it's not just a mistake but also a lesson to be learn. Now if your not happy with your life,I think we should be happy for the people around us whom we can see their success and reached goals because there's no medicines for "envy". Deal with it!

So long!

Feel bad and Grrrrrr!

Hello guys! Forgive if you will visit my page now and something is missing. My designs are now missing and I hate it! I'm still trying to recover my old designs but i don't think I can get it back. It really makes me sad for today but I can't do it right now I have to spend a day to finish my page and hope you will understand. Many thanks!


a blessed day for all of you!

Thanks to you!

Since I joined the blog world, I always think if I'm doing the right thing?
Am I a real blogger now? I have these list of my friends who have been there for me since from the start but really don't know if they are happy or satisfied with what I'm doing. I mean am I like the other blogger who always have a regular readers of their site? I think I have them but maybe they are just a simple readers and not that expressive to let me know how they feel for my post and my whole blog. It's ok!
It's really okay for me but what I want to know is How's my blog?

So far, I'm happy every time I see my visitors, even If I don't have that too much opp in PPP and in Spark,I'm happy with my friends right now, for the readers of my blog. Really guys! Really! I really appreciate all of you guys! (Please don't get jealous for this post ok?) It's not just they've tagged me or I have a tags for them but I know it's their routine to do their rounds. Simply doing a blog roll rounds is really a highly appreciated because still they find time to visit my page. I think sometimes it's important to let other people know how you feel and you appreciate what's anything about them.




Today, I was touched and a bit a bit shocked when I visited a friends page, and I saw a portion of her blog with a title "my favorite blogs" and guess what? BIG Girls Don't Cry is included there! It took a minute or more staring at that portion of her blog. (with a question to myself really? my blog is one of her favorites?)hehehe!

I don't want to think what is the real meaning of that portion to her blog. If it simply the list of her blog roll, it's fine but it's really flattering when I saw the name of my blog as her favorite blog. Thanks to Aybi. It may sounds so "madrama" but I want you to know that you really make me smile today! You make me happy and give me an inspiration to be a good and responsible blogger. Thank you!

Good Day!

Is it my fault?

Good evening everybody! I just finished my household chores, it's getting late but still I try to get back here for tonight. While washing the dishes, I thought about a relative of mine who asked a favor to do something for her, it's just she want me to go at her house last night at around 8:30pm to bring some foods for her family. She can't come home early that's why she asked me to do so and lending me some money to give her family. (her house is located by the next barangay after our place, approximately 5kms. away)I told her that I don't think I can come to her house at that time because it's late.My daughter is always following me wherever I go and I can't bring my daughter with me by that time just to do her a favor because I don't like it too, maybe in the morning but not that night. She got angry and told me some
words after putting down the phone. I told her too that she should come home early because I might not do the favor but she 's insisted me to do it. I feel sad! She's the only one requesting to me but it sounds like I'm really the one responsible to do that and she have the right to get mad at me. Why there are some people have that kind of attitude? I feel quite guilty and made me think for her reactions ( she might think I don't care with her family) but I can't see myself that it's my fault.I have so many things to do and I think I have to do that first than doing something for anybody. In the first place it's her duty before leaving the house and not to ask for anybody even your relatives. Yes you can ask for that favor but you should be ready that not everybody will answer you "yes".My hubby asked me why is my facial reaction is like that while washing the dishes (with a sad face or hard to sketch like my hubby said) I said "Nothing, I'm okay!"I preffered not to tell him the whole story because I don't want my hubby to get mad at her. Right after that I finished washing the dishes smiling. . .








Goodnight!

Missing you both!

I made this post and having this tag for my friends here who have been away for a while. YUMs and Sheng, this tag is for you! I really don't know why are you both not around lately but hopefully it's just a busy days for both you. I knew that Yums is already back to work and sometimes she's so busy have alot more things to do, about Sheng, honestly I don't know where she is right now but I do hope their both ok and in good condition. I'm a little bit worried but I always think positively that their just busy doing more important things. I always dropped by to their pages to know if they have their new post, it means their back but still I feel sad if I only saw was their old post. Well,it's just I miss you both! Hope you like this tag of mine for both of you! I want you to know that I'm just here just a click away if you need anything. Mwah!Take care!



Good afternoon!

Approval from Spark

Finally I got the socialspark approval! Yehey!I'm so glad to this good news. I can now do more opp from spark aside from PPP which the opp is always taken. Thank you for this one Spark! I can now continue to do my blogging with earnings hehehe! Hope you can easi approved my posts too! looking forward to do more opp's from you! Time to browse qualified opp for now. Thanks again and good day!


So Long!

Payment Completed

What a beautiful morning! I just finished my laundry few hours ago when I visited my page here in blogger. I remember to open my mail and guess what I have for today? an e-mail from Payperpost saying they already paid my payment for my last opp and ask me to visit my paypal account to verify it. I feel so happy for today when I opened my paypal account and received my payment from izea. It may not that big amount but still the feeling is so good that I am now back in earning on my own while I'm staying at home and just do the blogging. Yehey! It feels good! Really! I'm so excited to do more posts and opp for today, so inspired and so eager to earn more. Thank you very much PPP! Thank you Izea! Thank you Paypal! You make me feel so glad not only for today but for all the time that you were going to approved and pay for my posts.









Good morning everybody!

I'm so....

Huhuhu! You know what guys? I just feel so sad for tonight. A few minutes ago when I saw a friend of mine being online @ YM. I quickly changed my status from invisible to available for him to see that I'm online too so that we could chat and have a small talk because the last time we talk is 2-3 months ago but he changed his status again and it says he's now offline. I tried to send him a message but he didn't reply. I try not to feel this way but it seems I can't. I feel that he's hiding from me. (That's the problem about me, I'm too paranoid sometimes)I wish I was wrong, maybe he has talk with melai,(he is in UK and her wife still here in the Phils.) his wife and they need more time to talk that's why he decided to ignore me pretending he didn't saw me online. Maybe? Ok! I will understand for the sake of our friendship.
Hehehe!






whew!

Feeling? Okay!

Thanks Mars! (for this tag) I think it will be a good idea to feel okay this morning!
Want t o feel okay? What are you waitin' for? continue the cycle of this tag.

"I'm okay and I must be okay because God is with me."



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I'm passing this tag for my friends and I hope all of you guys are okay right now namely yums, mary, hannah and mom, chloee, and to all of you guys out there!



Good morning!

Pain in my heart

Before I sign out, I saw the post title of one of the bloggers here in my list. It's entitled a congenital heart disease. I did not open it to read but I remember myself last night when I feel something painful in my chest. It's been along time since I last felt something painful and it's not smooth when I breath every time I feel bad and crying that's why I'm afraid too whenever I feel something with regards to my heart. But last night, I was not in bad mood and I'm not crying but I just feel again the pain in my heart. On the next day I feel better without doing anything, without taking any medicines, it's just like a mood swings, it comes not that often but it's painful. I'm not yet decided to go for a check up because I might wrong to what I feel but hopefully it will never come back again.

Just a Mood Swings!

I'm not in the mood for today. I can't think about anything to post, although I have to fix what I need to in my opp in PPP, I can't find the solution too! I have no choice but to let go of that opp and wait for the other opp's that I'm qualified into. Sorry guys, I feel so bad for today, I'll try to get back later if my mood swings change. I'm okay I just need to learn something on my own and I think I have to start now.But how? I know I have to take some relax a to start what I need to do and to have a good and positive outcome too! Right?


still a good day for all of us!

At last!

Good morning guys! Good morning everyone! Good morning everybody! hehehe!
It's just really a good morning for me! Finally I submitted my opp to PPP. They immediately respond to my ticket and luckily I already fixed what I need to fix.
It feels good! hehehe! I hope it will start a new task for me everyday, blogging some opp not just my personal happenings. Thanks to you guys! Yums and PPP support.
It's just a short post but sincerely from my heart. Thank you very much! So long!